Has the internet killed my attention span?
The to-do list looks a lot like this: Wash the clothes, watch the news. Commute to a meeting, listen to a podcast. Give my kids a bath, catch up on my e-mails.
And my emotional state teeters somewhere between all of these: Feeling slightly accomplished, mostly exhausted, somewhat concerned that I missed something, and overwhelmed by the fact that I need to repeat, repeat, repeat it all tomorrow.
As I sat down to write this, I fancied myself a modern woman. But then I wrote it all down and started asking myself:
Am I missing life’s best moments?
My name is Amie, and I am a co-founder of NJYC. Bridget and I came up with this idea when we realized there was a need in the NJ yoga community to create a celebratory, informational, uplifting, connection-based space for everyone and anyone seeking to live their best life, on and off the mat. We believe that there are inspirational voices and truly engaging experts in the Garden State who are primed and ready to share the goods on everything from power vinyasa to transcendental meditation – with lots of deliciously healthy food, chakra-soothing jewels, street-to-studio styles, and manifestation mantras sprinkled in between.
This is our space to live, share, breathe, transform, and most importantly – to find each other.
So you would think I am a master yogi, right?
Not at all.
The reality is, I find myself wholly and completely unable to shut off my mind.
As a photographer, web designer, media kit creator, phone call taker, and scheduling savant, I am constantly caught up in one task, with my mind attaching to the five I have lined up immediately afterward.
I wake up and immediately think about what needs to be done. Stillness and silence give me more anxiety than Bridget’s 8 AM phone call, which is essentially a brainstorming session of everything she dreamt up the night before.
And that girl can DREAM.
Stopping the freight train of mind-stuff is scary. So I don’t. I keep making things happen, which is great…and horrible.
When I sit down on my mat to practice, I truly do try to “still the mind and let the breath be my guide.”
Teachers always offer a reminder like that and believe me, I feel the power of those words.
If only I could DO IT.
Just breath! Right? Over and over. Don ‘t think about that e-mail. Don’t focus on your to-do list. Don’t worry about dinner. Just let it all go.
For me, this is often unachievable. In fact, some of my best ideas come when I’m laying in savasana with my eyes open. (YES, you can judge me for not being able to close my eyes in savasana).
My husband (who limits his workout to an annual 5K run, for which he engaged in absolutely NO preparation) recently came with me to see the new, beautiful Honor Yoga studio in North Brunswick.
His reaction to the space SHOCKED me. Instead of poking around for a few seconds, rolling his eyes, and asking to leave, he lingered in the meditation room for almost 10 minutes.
After soaking it all in, he turned towards me and said: “I want to meditate, will you come try it with me?”
My first thought was to say NOOOOO. Absolutely not. There is no way I will be able to do that. We don’t have time for that. We have kids. There aren’t enough hours in the day for just…sitting.
But I didn’t. I paused and marveled at his willingness to open his mind and heart to what can be a deeply intimidating practice for so many people – including yogis who spent years focusing on asana, without adding other mindfulness practices into their lives.
I’ve met hundreds of yogis since we started NJYC in October 2017. Early on, I assumed everyone meditated until the levitated.
I quickly learned that isn’t even close to the truth.
Having the biggest backbend doesn’t make you a meditator. Perfect balance on your palms doesn’t prepare you to sit in silence. A daily dedication to twisting out the tension isn’t enough to create the quietude you need for quality cushion time.
Many yogis find meditation long after they start moving and grooving on the mat. One does not equal the other; both take time, effort, intention, and a letting go of the internal conversations that hold us back.
With all that in mind (pun intended), Bridget and I decided to create a March Meditation Immersion.
We found 14 amazing meditation teachers and asked them to record short guided meditations for you (and me).
Follow along with me, or go at your own pace into this beautiful new journey. You can sign up for the immersion below, and expect to get your new meditation every day for 16 days right to your inbox.
I had to leave my old self behind, so I could meet who I needed to be
Amie is a multi-passionate photographer, designer, content creator and website developer, with an eye for innovation and imagery. She loves to work with individuals and small business to build a beautiful visual representation of their brand. When not shooting, Yoga teaches Amie to live and breathe IN the moment, which has become the main tool in capturing some of life’s most extraordinary occasions.
Join Our Meditation Immersion!
16 Days. 5-10 Minutes a Day. 1 Breath at a Time.